"let me out"

i've been feeling a little restless lately. i love my family and i love my home but lately i just want to get out. i want to have my own house and my own family. and i dont know if i even want it here. i want to go places, and see things. sometimes, i feel like just getting in my car and driving. driving to the first town that speaks out to me and says, "this is where you belong". of course, i suppose i cant do that. it has always been a dream though. maybe one day ill decide to do it, just for a few months or so.

so now, im trying to think of what i can do to stop this feeling.

i talked to mom. she said go on a vacation. yea but with who!? all my friends are either working or dont have the money to go. the only person i really want to see the world with is dan. but since we arent married, that doesnt exactally work. and it wouldnt exactally work to just marry him and then pack up and leave. i mean, we hardly have money. we arent even close to our $10,000 goal! so how on earth would that work?

then mom said to keep working and save money. she said maybe in the process you'll meet someone who will want to travel with you. or maybe the desire will pass. i doubt it. ive been wanting to "get out" for a while.

i feel stuck. stuck in the same old routine every single day. seeing the same people, doing the same things.

i dont know. whats your suggestions? have you ever felt like this before? and what did you do?