today has sucked. at least the most part of it has. my alarm went off at quarter after five and i pressed the snooze button. my brain didnt really process the fact that it was going off because i needed to get up and get ready for work. smart move, jess! when it went off five minutes later i realized i would be late and quickly got out of bed and rushed off to work. i managed to confuse my manager when i showed up because michelle had originally been scheduled. however, these managers dont seem to realize that she has school and that her availability of 6-10 is in fact, pm not am. so i had taken that shift and told ashley (the other manager) who apparently didnt pass that fact onto bobby, our other manager. oh well. then at around quarter after six i started feeling horribly sick. as in it hurt to walk. i was on drive thru window and since it was past six we were being timed. so me taking off for the bathroom every few minutes sure did not help the times, or my teams happiness level with me. whatever. i called mich and she agreed to come in and finish the shift for me. so around seven she rolled in and i took off. bobby even said that some how, under that sun burn i had on my cheeks, i was managing to look pale. so not cool.
the first thing i did when i got home was head to bed. i slept till close to lunch time and then woke up and spent some time on the computer. dan came over after school for half an hour to drop off my camera (he figured id like to have it) and we spent that time on the front deck, eating chips. i love how goofy hes been acting with me lately. well not just lately. hes always been somewhat of a goof. but these past few days hes just been even goofier and well, its been alot of fun. i think i might love him even more than when he left :) i slept from 2:00pm straight through supper and then woke up and read my book. and now, here i am. an empty stomache, feeling a weird mixture of emotions (i feel like im going to cry and i just dont know why!!) and wishing i could crawl into dan's arms. but i cant and so, im almost ready for bed again.
the good news of the day is that both dan and i are hoping to have our debts paid off by the end of this week. and then we are going to save, save, save! maybe not spending wont seem so difficult now that i know its going towards our future. theres nothing else that can possibly take our money. except the necessities. and a few dates :) but its summer time and so those can come cheaper now. like walks and rollerblading.. dont need money for that. and besides, its going to be busy on the feedlot this summer so dan will be working quite hard. i know already that its going to be hard and i might get cranky with him for always being gone and busy but in the end, with all the money hes going to make, itll just help us out. and it will give me the opportunity to work some more too and save up for us as well.
i cant wait till that future of ours. i know it wont be easy- nobodys life ever is. but being with him is all that matters. and i cant wait to marry him and have kids. maybe thats cheezy but hey, its part of who i am :)
well, goodnight everyone. im looking quite forward to sleeping in tomorrow. then after that its up early every day for work. yay!
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